J. C. Eastling ([info]jc_eastling) wrote,
@ 2006-04-16 14:35:00
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Entry tags:angst, naruto, romance, sasusaku, team 7

[Naruto] Do There Embrace
Title: Do There Embrace
Fandom: Naruto
Genre: Angst/romance.
Pairing: Sasuke/Sakura primarily, but also includes Naruto/Sakura and hints of Naruto/Sasuke and Naruto/Sakura/Sasuke.
Rating: Hard R.
Wordcount: 1,020
Warnings: This is squicky. No, seriously. There are unhappy endings and dark sex and morbid thoughts.
Disclaimer: Naruto belongs to Kishimoto Masashi. As you can see, it's lucky I'm not writing it.

This is what the rest of the Leaf sees when they discover Naruto and Sakura's little habit of having sex atop Sasuke's grave:

They see a triumphant Hokage pinning down the woman he loves, the woman he's always loved more than anything in the world, on the grave of the man he hated, and making passionate love to her. To both of them, it is a way of spitting at the memory of someone they hated.

It's rather disturbing, true, but after all the two of them have been through together, after all they've gone through to help the village, they're allowed a few unsettling quirks.
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Normally, Sakura straddles him in bed, pinning him down, letting her hair fall down around her face and into his eyes like a curtain that closes the two of them off from the world.

(She told him once that she wanted to lop off all the rest of her hair too, leave herself feeling free and light-headed, but he begged her not to. He said he wanted her to stay the way she was when he woke up to see her defending him and Sasuke in the Forest of Death.)

When they come to Sasuke's grave, it's different.

"I want to be as close to Sasuke-kun as possible," Sakura explains to Naruto as she strips off her clothes.

He nods, because he understands; he always understands. Sometimes she feels that maybe she should let him take the bottom for once, because he must want to be close to Sasuke too, but she's still a bit selfish. Neither of them has grown up entirely.

When they're both naked she grabs him by the hips and yanks him onto her, pulling the two of them down to the ground. They needn't worry about hitting their heads on a tombstone. Sasuke's grave is marked only by a small patch of granite set in the ground. His name is not on it--only the characters for Uchiha.

Naruto squirms against her for a moment, and then he enters her with a wrench of breath.

Sakura jerks back into the earth, and suddenly it's a comfort. It's cool and soft and somewhere beneath it all is Sasuke, waiting for her. She grabs Naruto and pulls him as close to her as she can. He's done so much for her--the least she can do is share Sasuke and the earth with him now.

The images start a little while after that, pressing into her from below as Naruto presses into her from above. The cracks inside her head fill up with Sasuke, just like she always wanted. She can see Sasuke stumbling out of a cave to greet her; Sasuke being pulled from the depths of a lake to embrace her; Sasuke falling out of a dark cage into her arms--

--Sasuke stretching out in ground below Naruto and Sakura and feeling his way up to them.

(Sakura is a medic. She once explained to a patient that in the heat of excitement, the desperate and the unstable can conjure up hallucinations. They often start out as tactile sensations.)

It's then that she feels Sasuke curling himself around her. He nuzzles the curve of her shoulders and neck, and he puts his arms around her and rests his hands on her stomach. As she begins to rock in his embrace, he slides his hands down until his fingers are tangled up in the heat of her, shifting and fluttering with a skill that in life, he never had a chance to use for anything more than killing.

"Sasuke-kun," she pleads with him. "Sasuke-kun, stay."

(When her mouth opens and closes like this at home in bed, Naruto fills it with kisses. Here he would not take that privilege from Sasuke.)

She struggles to sink deeper into the ground, closer to Sasuke, as Naruto holds her to the earth. Her eyes blurring with the tears she won't shed, she turns her head and she seeks his mouth with hers. "Sasuke-kun I need you right now--"

And then she's not sure whether she feels his lips brush hers or not, because that moment is always when the ache uncoils inside her and she comes. Sasuke retreats back into his grave even more rapidly than he arose after that.

What's next is the worst part: the time between when she comes and Naruto does.

(The first time they did this, she cried hysterically at that point. It made Naruto frantic, and he asked her if he should stop. She nearly screamed at him not to stop. He had to finish.)

In that interval, Sasuke is trapped in the ground beneath them, but she can sense him reaching for them, hear him begging to be released. His voice is muffled, but Sakura could swear that he's saying something about love, and he's trying not to sob.

Finally, Naruto yells out and sinks against her. After a moment, he catches his breath, and he lifts himself enough to lean past her shoulder and press his face to the cool granite of the Uchiha grave marker.

"Sasuke," he whispers. He gives their teammate back his name, and as his lips move, they brush the earth.

And Sasuke is silent until the next time.
---
It is a strange custom, to be sure. The village knows that. But regardless of his funny little quirks, like eating too much ramen and having sex with his wife on their enemy's grave, he is the best Hokage ever, and the population of the Leaf is grateful for that. He was plagued by the cruelest childhood anyone could imagine, by the horrors of being an outcast jinchuuriki, and he overcame it all while still being a kind and wonderful human being. He was spurned by the love of his life in favor of a cruel monster, but he overcame even this adversity to win her love.

It is the best possible ending to an amazing story, and whenever those who know them see Uzumaki Naruto and his Sakura together, they can tell that the two of them are perfect and invincible.




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[info]kayimi
2006-04-16 06:59 pm UTC (link)
that's so. lovely. ;_____;

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[info]annwyd
2006-04-16 07:00 pm UTC (link)
Thanks.

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[info]joiedecombat
2006-04-16 07:12 pm UTC (link)
I do not know that "lovely" is the word that I would use. It's very wrong, but in the good way, which is what I imagine was intended. For me what really makes this piece is the framework - the illustration of what everyone thinks is going on, to contrast with what is actually happening. It makes it that much more... I don't really have the word for it, but maybe you get the idea.

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[info]annwyd
2006-04-16 07:15 pm UTC (link)
Yeah, the framework is important--the contrast of the shallowness of the average non-shinobi Leaf villager who doesn't really know Naruto and Sakura to the broken complexity of the actual relationship there. I'm glad that worked, since in my fandom-induced frustration, I may have played it up a bit much.

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Wow
[info]gsyh
2006-04-16 07:50 pm UTC (link)
...and I really like how it starts and ends with the village just not getting why they do it, missing the point, his heart.

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Re: Wow
[info]annwyd
2006-04-17 06:34 am UTC (link)
Thanks.

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my brain bleeds
[info]psatori0258
2006-04-17 05:11 am UTC (link)
That was painful to read.

And I don't mean in the bad way.

I mean that it was evocative in such a capacity as to bring a minute pain to my chest.

It's powerful in its brevity, tasteful though strong. It's gripping, it's real, it's very, very well-written.

And though it's already been covered, I thoroughly enjoyed the different perspectives, the truth and the perception of it.

Also appealing was how you handled the focal point of the story; it seemed very heavily SasuSaku, despite the obvious coupling in the story, despite you having related to us that Naruto had won Sakura's love. Naruto seemed more a footnote in the NaruSaku storyline, but what's interesting about THAT is that you added an entirely different dynamic concerning all three of them, and this is where Naruto becomes integral once again. This is what I enjoyed most of all; that their relationship isn't functional sans one or the other of them; Sasuke is separate but not divisible, he is inedibly a part of their lives....

I am squeeing in delight, ma'am.

ag

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Re: my brain bleeds
[info]annwyd
2006-04-17 06:36 am UTC (link)
I'm glad that it works, especially the character dynamics. I may have been focusing on the SasuSaku aspect, but Naruto is still a vital part of Team 7 and incredibly important to Sakura.

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[info]akumuness
2006-04-18 03:37 am UTC (link)
Came here via [info]a_white_rain, and -- wow. I honestly don't know what to say, except that was damn good. I don't normally get emotional after reading fics, but this nearly brought me to tears. I love how you made their relationship - dark and very unhealthy, and the villager's misinterpretation of the whole thing just triggered something in me, but I can't exactly tell what it was. The bits in parentheses were also very heartbreaking.

All in all, morbidly gorgeous, if that makes sense at all. I apologize if this seems like I'm babbling, but gah, this was good.

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[info]annwyd
2006-04-18 05:20 am UTC (link)
Thank you! No need to apologize at all. I'm glad you liked it and I should probably write some happier fic soon. After I finish the next fucked-up Team 7 angstfest.

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[info]cephiedvariable
2006-04-18 04:44 am UTC (link)
Well.

Uh. Wow.

And to reiterate that; Ouch. Simply the most beautiful fanfic I've read in months. The kind that hits you with that special sort of emotional pain that hurts but nonetheless feels so good (because goodness knows there's nothing quite like having an emotional reaction in accordance to the written word) that you need to go re-read certain passages because it's just that good.

shifting and fluttering with a skill that in life, he never had a chance to use for anything more than killing.

Epecially that line. That line was a whole lot of ow.

And the comparison between what the village thinks and what they're actually doing? Brilliant. That sort of seperation between what the newer generations of Konoha would think of Sasuke (in case he were not redeemed) and what Sakura and Naruto feel for him is something I've been trying to capture in fis for months, but I just end up throwing out all my drafts because... well, whatever you captured here I've thus proved incapable of. *thumbs up*

Lovely, heart wrenching, breath taking and all that ridiculous showering of praise. ♥

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[info]annwyd
2006-04-18 05:25 am UTC (link)
Thank you!

I'm really pleased that the contrast between the village's perceptions and Naruto and Sakura's perceptions came across well. I do enjoy playing with the ideas of how the newer generations would perceive Team 7 and its individual parts in various different outcomes, and this is one of them.

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[info]garefowl
2006-07-23 05:37 pm UTC (link)
I know I am many months late, but I just have to tell you that this fanfic is immorally beautiful. The descriptions and imagery kind of gave me the feeling of my chest being tugged on, leaving me breathless for several seconds. However, I just couldn't stop reading it.

Man, this was haunting and gorgeous. Great job. :)

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[info]chouchin
2006-12-07 08:43 pm UTC (link)
That is, definitely very awesome. :O

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[info]solosan
2007-08-02 07:03 pm UTC (link)
You didn't rip out my heart and stamp on it, nor did you pulverize my entrails with a spiked hammer. Somehow you pulled everything out of me painfully and fitted it meticulously back again. How the h*ll do you manage to make someone feel all those emotions??

Absolutedly magnificent.

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